Friday, September 28, 2007

My mom














My mom passed away today, September 28th. I got a call from my brother telling me she had died in a car accident. I was in shock and couldn't hardly speak except for a few expletives. I called Karin and became hysterical. I left work and came home to start sorting through everything. My brother called later and told me apparently it was not a car accident but she was on her way to work and pulled over into a neighbor's driveway and died instantly.

She was 58 almost 59 (this October). She was healthy, active and very spiritual. I always thought that I would have some sixth sense before something like this so you could say your goodbyes. But, that didn't happen and she died with me still never really forgiving her. It's too much to go into now but that will be one of my biggest regrets. I was able to see her a few months ago at my grandfather's funeral and we were able to mend some brokenness. It was the first time I had seen her in over 10 years. Karin and Tayler got to meet her for the first time.

I know the next few days (weeks, months) are going to be difficult. I already have remorse, anger and depression. I am not sure of the funeral arrangements as it has literally been just a few hours since her death. But, I will be leaving for Tuscon, AZ in the next few days. I do not think that Karin and Tayler will be going.

I will post more soon but had to use this as a way to write out everything going on in my head and heart. Some posts in the future will probably be kept private. Thank you for your prayers.

7 comments:

The Daly family said...

The Dalys are praying for you guys...

Ethan & Holly

Sarah's In the Midst of It said...

Oh, Brian! I am so sorry--know that Chris and I are praying for you and your family.

Jen said...

Hey Brian,

I am sorry and will be praying for you. Keep us updated. Let us know if we can do anything.

The VWs said...

Brian, Karin, and Tayler,

Mark, Tara, and Crew are all praying for you and your family.

Samuel said...

Brian, Karin and Tayler we are very very sorry to hear that sad news. Our prayers are with your family.
We love you guys
Troy, Sharline and Samuel Divis

emilie123 said...

Wow. I will pray that God will give you and your family peace and comfort during this difficult time. Let me know if I can do anything else.

Anonymous said...

Brian,
I pray that find comfort in the prayers, presence and love of those around you. Having the ability to open up and lift up your hurt is part of the healing and part of moving forward. Allow yourself to feel what is happening it is all part of moving through grief not around it.
Praying the presence of Christ to be with you, Karen and Taylor.
Cindy Wilson