Friday, September 28, 2007
My mom passed away today, September 28th. I got a call from my brother telling me she had died in a car accident. I was in shock and couldn't hardly speak except for a few expletives. I called Karin and became hysterical. I left work and came home to start sorting through everything. My brother called later and told me apparently it was not a car accident but she was on her way to work and pulled over into a neighbor's driveway and died instantly.
She was 58 almost 59 (this October). She was healthy, active and very spiritual. I always thought that I would have some sixth sense before something like this so you could say your goodbyes. But, that didn't happen and she died with me still never really forgiving her. It's too much to go into now but that will be one of my biggest regrets. I was able to see her a few months ago at my grandfather's funeral and we were able to mend some brokenness. It was the first time I had seen her in over 10 years. Karin and Tayler got to meet her for the first time.
I know the next few days (weeks, months) are going to be difficult. I already have remorse, anger and depression. I am not sure of the funeral arrangements as it has literally been just a few hours since her death. But, I will be leaving for Tuscon, AZ in the next few days. I do not think that Karin and Tayler will be going.
I will post more soon but had to use this as a way to write out everything going on in my head and heart. Some posts in the future will probably be kept private. Thank you for your prayers.